Haven’t I used that title before? Oh well…
Christmas is now just a distant memory. Not the most exciting of times this year admittedly, but the break from all my regular stuff like the job hunting seems to have benefited me. Well that’s the conclusion my therapist came to when I saw her last week. I won’t mention anything else that was discussed - but I will say this - just having the chance to get my problems off my chest in the first place was somewhat liberating to say the least. As for what might happen in the future - well, I’ll just have to take things a day at a time.
I’ve had loads of people giving me support recently, not just the crew at About With Friends (where incidentally, I’ve now started working two mornings a week), but also from some unexpected folk as well, one of which I’ll never forget.
It all started inconspicuously enough a couple of days before New Year‘s Eve, when a woman called Camilla posted on Twitter “What's everyone's New Years resolutions ? Anything good ??” I saw people posting the usual stuff, giving up smoking, losing weight etc. etc. Anyway, I finally plucked up the courage and typed as a reply, “To try to build up my confidence when I'm in large crowds (I suffer from Social Anxiety Disorder by the way)”, and left it at that.
I wasn’t expecting a reaction to that tweet, but you can imagine my surprise when the following message came up on my timeline around ten minutes later…
“that's a fantastic and very brave one x wishing u best of luck and I have every faith in u x”
I was gobsmacked. To get that sort of encouragement from someone who’s never met me was, if I’m being honest, a real boost, especially after all I’d been through the previous couple of months. Since then, things have slowly started to look up for me. And with my last therapy session with the NHS Wellbeing service coming up next month, I’m regaining that self belief that I had a while back.
I don’t think Camilla will see this blog, but if she does, there’s just one thing I’d like to say to her - thank you for your kind words. I will cherish them always.
- Mark Radbourne
- Cromer, Norfolk, United Kingdom
I'm a former hospital radio/club/mobile DJ, avid record collector and amateur musician (playing guitar, keyboards, recorder, harmonica and percussion.) I've even filled in on bass guitar for a couple of local bands as well (although that was quite a few years ago). Also interested in Motorsports, Wrestling/Mixed Martial Arts and Classic Television and Radio from the 1960s - 1980s.
Why am I on here? Well, I'm just trying to make some sense of life before it's too late...but who cares anyway?